sunday internet window shopping.
the boots are by far one of my actual purchase goals.

damien rice - blower's daughter

music has always been something i call my oxygen. i get the chills almost daily from it. sometimes from excitement, sometimes from a memory, sometimes just because of the moment. there are a handful of songs that will always make my heart slow, or make my heart pound. reasons are not always clear & defined and some have definate reasons, atleast in my mind.
this song, is one of them. i listen with eyes shut ever so gently and i can play it on repeat without ever getting annoyed. i had put this song on a mix cd once that i can not seems to find or even remember the other songs on the cd. i really wish i could. i remember i listened to the mix cd every night, in my car, in the dark for a few months a few years back. i like those kinds of moments, they are mine and i will never find them silly...and really i think everyone should do those kinds of things.
if only i could place the song within this post, for someone else to listen as i explain but i can not. i do however strongly suggest you (whom ever you are) find it somehow and listen. making sure it is in a moment of silence and calm. even if you can not relate to the song, i think it will pull some string inside.

Damien Rice - Blower's daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

gettin started

i haven't been in the blogosphere for a few years. i used to have my own website (newsocks), and i might even still own the domain. i haven't checked on it in awhile. anyhow, here i am. trying to think of what i want to type, what i shouldnt really type. who will actually know this exsists (besides miss lissa. heart. ) ? do i care? should i care? i am not really sure of all any of that yet. just this past weekend i made one status update on my facebook (fuckin facebook) and it blew up in my face. yes, it was sarcastic and kind of threw out some personal drama but it was somewhat vague, but it still came back to bite me. *shrug* we'll see.
i am not 100% happy about my layout just yet either. i want to make my banner rounded like the rest of the table but i am rusty in photoshop.
For now though, i will keep that part of my life out of it. i mean, i already have so much more odd and ends type of thoughts and things i could use to fill this sucker up, i will not worry.
SO, here i am. starting a new blog and hoping to not just let it fade away, because after all, i really do love being able to do this, even if no one is really listening. as long as i listen to myself and try each day to remember that this moment is my life.